Sunday, March 9, 2014

Food, Tests, etc

Another test, another day has passed.  There are so many things I need to do, from the simple and mundane like doing laundry to getting my research proposal done. 

Somehow, I am still feeding myself. 

Green tea layered crepe cake

Gluten-free hazelnut cake 

Red bean dumplings! Nom

Hard to think that I am already 3/4 done with my M1 year.  
I don't know if I will look back on M1 year fondly, ever. 
My grandmother passed away, a good friend passed away after a traffic accident, and my mom had to undergo surgery to remove a suspicious mass (she's fine now) after going back and forth with the stupid insurance company.  
It was hard to stay sane through all that, and still do the things I needed to do.  

And then, to top it all off, when my stress levels before a test reaches an all-time high, I picked fights with the boyfriend and then I felt like a terrible, terrible person.

With time, I think the bitterness will fade.  After talking to a few practicing physicians, I have realized that some of them also hated M1 year for various reasons.  I just hope that the rest of the school year is uneventful.

Though I have to say, I love anatomy dissections.  The GI part was pretty gross, but I like anatomy.  
I'm also one of the few people that enjoy embryology and wish we had more of it.  

I've decided to eschew attending lectures and workshops.  Maybe I picked the wrong study buddies.  As important as it may be to be able to discuss concepts, I just cannot stand studying with other people.  I'm also more relaxed sitting at home, wearing my PJs all day every day.  Maybe it's because I can't stand neurotic med students, or maybe I'm neurotic myself and making myself uncomfortable.  I also save money, because not being on campus means I'm not tempted to buy coffee. 

So, how is life on your end?